If God has called you to be really like Jesus in all your spirit, He will draw you into a life of
crucifixion and humility, and put on you such demands of obedience, that He will not allow you to follow
other Christians, and in many ways He will seem to let other good people do things which He will not let
you do.
Other Christians and ministers who seem very religious and useful may push themselves, pull wires, and
work schemes to carry out their plans, but you cannot do it; and if you attempt it, you will meet with such
failure and rebuke from the Lord as to make you sorely penitent.
Others can brag on themselves, on their work, on their success, on their writings, but the Holy Spirit
will not allow you to do any such thing, and if you begin it, He will lead you into some deep mortification
that will make you despise yourself and all your good works.
Others will be allowed to succeed in making great sums of money, or having legacy left to them or having
luxuries, but God may supply for you daily, because He wants you to have something far better than gold,
and that is a helpless dependence on Him, that He may have the privilege of providing your needs day by day
out of the unseen treasury.
The Lord may let others be honored, and put forward, and keep you hid away in obscurity, because He wants
to produce some choice, fragrant fruit for His coming glory, which can only be produced in the shade.
God will let others be great, but keep you small. He will let others do a work for Him, and get the
credit for it, but He will make you work and toil on without knowing how much you are doing; and then to
make your work still more precious, He will let others get the credit for the work which you have done, and
this will make your reward ten times greater when Jesus comes.
The Holy Spirit will put a strict watch on you, with a jealous love, and will rebuke you for little words
and feelings or for wasting your time, which other Christians never seem distressed over.
Some make up your mind that God is an infinite Sovereign, and has a right to do as He pleases with His
own, and He will not explain to you a thousand things which may puzzle your reason in His dealings with you.
God will take you at your word; and if you absolutely sell yourself to be His slave, He will wrap you up
in a jealous love, and let other people say and do many things that you cannot do or say.
Settle it forever, that you are to deal directly with the Holy Spirit, and that He is to have the
privilege to tying your tongue, or chaining you hand, or closing your eyes in ways that others are not
dealt with.
Now when you are so possessed with the living God that you are, in your secret heart, pleased and
delighted over this peculiar, personal, private, jealous guardianship and management of the Holy Spirit
over you life, you will have found the vestibule of heaven.